It’s up to us to take some colourful paints and create the painting we want.
Two years ago I found myself looking at my own life, my own painting that I had created. I didn’t love it and there were big empty gaps in the canvas.
It took time to accept that if I wanted a different painting it was going to be up to me to figure out how to paint it. There were a few days when I wanted to throw every pot of colour on the floor. There were many many tears of despair and loneliness and a feeling of “Where did I go?!
Yes I loved my children and husband dearly and I was truly grateful for the travel and the opportunities and friendships that our nomadic family life had given us. However somewhere along the line my hopes and dreams for a career had got pushed to one side.
It wasn’t what I had signed up for at the beginning of married life. I wanted MORE for me. I wanted me back.
But oh my goodness has my life changed now in ways that I never thought possible.
Two years ago this month I said YES to my dreams and made a decision to ignite my dreams and never give up until I got there.
I didn’t have my own identity
I didn’t have a job
I had left my earning capacity behind in each country we had called home
I was dependent on someone else
I wasn’t setting an example of the freedom and independence I wanted my daughter to see was possible
I started asking, praying, getting quiet and writing hoping for an answer of what I could do to find my way back to independence and purpose
And boy was the path clearly shown step by step
An opportunity to write about my experiences, contribute to a global conference and co-author a book, learn how to help others heal themselves from disease and now my own upcoming book. But there was more to come
I knew I had come here to play a BIG GAME! I had a message and a voice and a lot acquired wisdom and skills to share with the world. I wanted to support women to find their voices and claim their worth. I wanted to create wealth for myself and my husband and leave a legacy for my children. I had some pretty BIG dreams.
But I had no idea how to do any of it. I was so confused as I hated technology, I hated social media. I had no money to invest of my own in a business and I was drowning in overwhelm at how much I needed to learn.
Then the answer to my prayers came when I was introduced to an incredible quantum physics/ heart led, ‘I create my reality community’ and a business that is quite honestly freakin’ amazing. The combination of both is HOME. I am back from the ledge and fully looking at the amazing view from the window. And I have a way of helping other women now share their messages and express their dreams.